I'm going to do it

I'm not one to publicly talk about life's struggles or tribulations, but I feel like in order for me to overcome some of these, I should just write them down. So this post is my inner most, raw feelings.

For as long as I can remember I have been overweight. Because of some of life's occurrences, and the fact that food is just too yummy, I turned to food in times of struggle, heartache, celebration, fear, jubilation and triumph. Frankly, I'm embarrassed and deeply saddened that this is how I let things turn out. BUT things are going to change. That horrid phrase of "My diet starts tomorrow.." is going out the door, and I am going to change my life.

In the past, my reasoning for wanting to be thin varied from reason to reason. "If I were skinny, so and so would like me" or "If I were skinny, I would have gotten that job." Well, I want to do this for me. I want to be happy, and most of all, I want to love who I am. I want to find that girl that is deep down inside of me, and pull her out. That girl deserves to love her body and herself.

So, here is to a healthier, happier future. I know with the help of friends, family, and most of all the lord, I can do it......


.......... and you better believe I will.

How Can you not love her

So, back in October (?) I got to see this lovely perform. Needless to say in the next life...I will have her voice..... and her glasses.

A whole lot of somethin

It's exactly 5:10 and I am sitting at home by my lonesome so here is what you get:

Ten Things I wish I could say to 10 Different People

1. I miss you. 

2. I think you are the hottest thang that ever hit the planet

3. Um..I think you and I could make some really cute children but maybe it's just me

4. I admire you to the moon and back

5. Stop being so dramatic. Everything will be fine

6. I wish you could see how great you are.

7. You are so much better than that

8. I know it's hard, but you can do it

9. I love you I love you I love you

10. I told you so

Nine Things About Myself

1. I'm in love with fashion. really though...I hear wedding bells. 

2. I think I have short term memory loss.

3. I love to organize/clean (when I'm in the right mood)

4. Sometimes I secretly wish I could run away and live in a cottage in Ireland...and marry Gerard Butler..but that's beside the point.

5. I want to be a Kardashian

6. I need to learn to spend my money....and when I say spend I really mean save. 

7. I wish I was crafty

8. I'm excellent with directions. Take me somewhere once and I could take you there again. 

9. I think about bizarre situations as I lay in bed at night. For instance: Who would come to my funeral if I died? And what pictures or music would they use for the slideshow?  

Eight Ways to Win my Heart

1. Make me laugh... Guaranteed win.

2. Sticking up for your friends/family even when it might be "un-cool"

3. Speak to me with a foreign accent, preferably irish? ok great.

4. Be spontaneous. I'll love you forever

5. Go after what you want and be ambitious.

6. Adore your mamma

7. Love and serve others.

8. Being brown

Seven Things That Cross My Mind A Lot

1. Oooh she looks cute. Where did she get that shirt?

2. I need another job

3. What's going on tonight? Where can I find cute boys to hang out with?

4. What am I doing with my life. I feel so unaccomplished.

5. I hope (insert person I know here) is doing ok.

6. Who will I marry?

7. I need to work out

Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep

1. This sounds absolutely ridiculous, but I think about clothes that I wish I had that don't even exist.

2. Brush my teeth.

3.  Set my alarm and check it at least twice.

4. Have some one on one time with the Man upstairs.

5. Blog stalk

6. Tell my mom I love her

Five People-or Groups of People- Who Mean A Lot To Me

1. My Grandparents-basically perfect. Adore them.

2. My Madre and paps.

3. Let's be honest...anyone brown. I love my colored folk

4. My bestest friends (you know who you are)

5. Jesus

Four Things I'm Wearing

1. Black leggings

2. Floral shirt/dress thingy

3. toe ring

4. gold dangly earings

Three Songs I Listen To Often

1. Roslyn- Bon Iver and St. Vincent

2. Please Don't Go- Mike Posner

3. Anything to do with Coldplay

Two Things I Want To Do Before I Die

1. Be a mom and a good one at that

2. Run a marathon

One Confession:

I wish I could change someone's life for the better